fadin' away like a slow leak ..

some say we're all living to die , but deep down ,

it feels like i'm dying inside.

when your plane no longer flies & your sun doesn't shine ,

& all you can do is look at the moon while your crying inside.

everything looks grim , & happiness ? it's just another word now.

will i ever be content ?

at peace ?

or will i be cold ?

with a invitation to a deathtrap known as my heart.

the way i am is not the way i wanna be , & now not even i , can see i in me.

so i smoke & float on , with my coat on , cause it's cold where i'm going ..

C A S S.

"..even if it means biting the bullet n lying."

so i was talking to the big homie today about his & my relationship. just tryna get some insight cause we're in similar situations .. & i was told something i've been told before & already knew. "females are always right." lol .. so many people have tried to express this to me throughout my life but i never wanted to listen .. simply because i believe , right is right & wrong is wrong. if you're wrong , you need to be made aware of that. but what people keep telling me is that in order to make your relationship work & keep everybody happy , you have to lie. lol .. sounds bad but it's the truth. do whatever you have to do to make it work , lie to her & tell her she's right. that's what females want to hear. apologize , even if you don't mean it if that's what it takes. there's a difference between being dishonest & doing whatever it takes to make it work .. you just have to find that fine line & decide for yourself if it's worth "biting the bullet" ..

misunderstood.

why is it okay for females to show emotion but when i guy does it he's considered "soft" or a "bitch nigga" ?

mainly because males are only supposed to show emotions that are perceived to be masculine & strong. i.e : anger , or any emotion that branches from that.

but news flash , WE HAVE FEELING'S too. we have emotions too & should be able to show them & express ourselves without being looked at as being weak. the majority of males will react to any situation with anger because it's the only choice he has. he can't be sad or hurt , society won't allow it. so he has to cover it up with hatred , anger , frustration , or put on a nonchalant front.

look at all of our past presidents , all men of course. society doesn't trust a female to be the head of the country because people feel they will base decisions off of emotions & not logic. although that may be true , it may not be half bad. i believe our country would be a lot more peaceful & we wouldn't be in the middle of a war right now.

my point is simply this , males have emotions also & we should be treated as such. we aren't rocks , our hearts beat the same as females do. keep that in mind when you make a decision or speak. don't just think "he won't care anyway" because we do , maybe more than you & sometimes more than you know.

C A S S.